COMFORT

You remember when you were young, you would always sleep with this dirty, old pillow or blanket? I used to have a sarong for my security blanket. I travelled with it. If I didn't get to smell it or touch it when going to bed, i can't sleep. It's got this hold over me like a spell. Fortunately, I was still sane and didn't name my blanket, unlike some people.

As I grew up, my blanket started to tear and I was left with bits and pieces of it but my bedtime habit remained the same. The blanket even followed me to Aussie land. Until one time, my housemate chanced upon it and exclaimed, "What the hell is this?!"

It suddenly dawned on me that my security blanket had become a small piece of very old and ugly rag. I decided that I can't possibly spend the rest of my life holding on to that torn blanket. And from then on, I kept in my wardrobe (still didn't wanna throw it away cos the sarong was given by my late grandmother) and I do still steal a peek (and touch) once in a blue moon.

Why do we fancy our old pillows and security blankets so much?

1. Cos it brought us comfort.

2. Cos the smell is good (despite what your family/friends/spouse might say)

3. Cos it keeps us warm when we're cold.

4. Cos you've had it for too long and you can't bear to throw it away.

Does this sound familiar? Sometimes, it is not the old pillow or security blanket that you can't bear to throw away. There are times when you're in a relationship, and you're so comfortable with your partner that you think you're in love with him/her and you will spend the rest of your life together. You think that:

1. I don't want to live without him/her.

2. I trust no one else, other than him/her.

3. We laugh and joke and have fun together. It's so comfortable being with him/her.

Just like that old pillow, you feel comfortable with that special person. You can't bear to leave that person. But do you love him/her? We don't want to part with that smelly pillow/blanket, but that doesn't mean we love the pillow/blanket. We juz love the comfort that it brings.

I'm no expert, but I think you know whether you love a person or not with these signs:


For him:

1. You love the smell of her hair.

2. You love the way she laughs.

3. You whine like a baby, only in front of her.

4. When you miss her, your heart arches like it's being clenched.

5. You only want to have sex with her.

6. You think she's beautiful no matter what other people says.

7. You find yourself playing with her cats even though you're not a fan of house pets.

8. You realise that you want to protect her, always.

9. You love how she whines with you.

10. It kills you to see her cry.


For her:

1. You think he smells good even after a game of soccer.

2. You think he's damn "man" even though he's afraid of cockroaches.

3. You find him attractive, no matter what your friends say.

4. You find yourself constantly feeding his ego.

5. When you kiss him, the "current" is felt from head to toe.

6. You want to hold his hand only, and never let go.

7. You only want to be intimate with him.

8. You want to cook for him.

9. You only whine like a baby in front of him.

10. You cannot bear the thought of hurting him in any way.


Sure, the list goes on, but i'll just name these few.

Anyway, the reason why I brought it up is because I realised that I may be a security blanket for someone. A recent series of events brought me to this deduction. I shan't elaborate but it would appear to be so.

I had a discussion with Mr BF earlier and I asked him some questions, not expecting any answer. I just wanted him to think about what I said. If, in the event that he agrees with me, there might be no wedding to look forward to. Although it's kinda late to back out now because of the monetary and housing commitments, but we'll work it out somehow.

Oh, and sorry for the late of updates. Apart from my ill health, I have been too troubled to blog. Will try to update soon.